"You Need to Consider Counseling"

There are a few things I have heard all my life.  One is "Not everyone is going to like you", my Mother would tell me regularly.  Seriously, I believe it, but I just don't understand it!!  I'm a freakin' SWEETHEART who is just desperate enough to do anything to get people to like me!!!  But, even still, there are some fools out there who simply do not like me.  Another is "You need to learn to relax."  I can't say I believe this or not, because I just can't comprehend what the word "relax" means.  Sit and do nothing?  Complete waste of time.  OH, that reminds me of the time I was kicked out of a stress management workshop.  They were talking about taking long walks in the woods and collecting leaves.  I simply asked what they did with the leaves when they were done, and the instructor said to throw them away.  When I pointed out the fact that I found that task would be a complete waste of time, I was asked to leave.  (I know, I'm simply misunderstood.)

Another very common occurrence is to be told I should seek counseling.  I never thought my drug dealer would tell me that, though.  But, alas, it happened at my last appointment.  Lets get something straight...  I don't actually HAVE a drug dealer in the form of some dude on a street corner in a seedy neighborhood where I pull over to the side of the curb like on TV and he appears at my window.  My drug dealer is my "Pain Management and Rehabilitation Doctor".  People with chronic pain disease processes need to add this doctor into their team.  Why?  Because, darn it, Ehler's Danlos Syndrome (EDS) hurts!!!  Its NOT Multiple Sclerosis, Fibromialgia, Rheumatoid Arthritis, or the like, but it is just as painful as those conditions.  So we get management or therapeutic drugs to help us cope.  In some states, I'd be allowed medical marijuana, too!!  But, I'm in NYS so I don't.  But I really dont want it.  I'm still trying to lose weight.  I have 15 more pounds to go, and with all my "medications", its not easy.  Why would I want to add a constant case of the munchies to it?  Oh, and I'm afraid of drug addiction, so I don't have any of the good stuff around that would make people want to rip me off and sell my stuff on the street.  Nah, the most "whipee" of my drugs is a muscle relaxer that is not addictive, but if you read the side effects wrong, you think your tongue can get dizzy.

Once again, I went off on a tangent.  My drug dealer has suggested that I seek counseling from a doctor who specializes in chronic disease processes.  Why?  As he put it, I am a fairly young lady who was living a full and active life, and that was quickly taken from me and it appears to be depressing me.  Do NOT get me wrong.  I love this man.  He is a sweetheart and really seems to get EDS and how this "rare condition" is affecting me.  And he's right.  See, if you are born with certain diseases, or if you have pain from various conditions all your life, then you are relatively used to it.  Its always been that way.  But to have a sudden onset of this crap is completely different, and there is a grieving process I need to go through and I need to relearn to love life differently.  WOAH!  That is some deep stuff.  Deep, philosophical stuff.  Then I remembered a time in my life when I was very interested in deep philosophical stuff.  That was when I was in college!!!!  Oh, and when I was in college, I smoked marijuana, and had even MORE deep, philosophical conversations about really, REALLY important things...  like if the Band got paid to do a gig, did they split the profits, or did it go into a single account to get them to the other gigs.....  No body would answer me, and you know who you are, and this and other questions have been kept alive in my every inquisitive mind all these years. 

And off on another tangent.  It truly isn't easy to loose your mind like this, but its quite enjoyable to try to keep up with me!  So, late in life loss of vibrancy.  To counsel or not to counsel.  To grieve, perchance to see?  Whether tis nobler to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous what-evers?  Is it truly to love and to have lost, then to have never had loved at all?  And in what states is Medical Marijuana legal?  And since I love to add photos to my blogs, please enjoy this picture of a bacon turtle burger.